QOTD: Small Joys

“Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness.”

– Pearl S Buck

I had to stay home with the kid today. He picked up a little cold last week and he needed another day before heading back to the babysitter. 

As much as it is worrisome to lose a days worth of pay and at the same time not get much done around the house because he needs extra attention, days like today are my favorite. I would love to be able to stay home and work. As hard as it would be to try and run a business and balance parental duties as a single parent, it would be completely worth it. 

Today, I caught myself getting a bit down on myself because it seems almost impossible to do. That future isn’t close and I realize the amount of work needed to get there. But then I remembered to enjoy this moment while I could. Getting to spend an extra full day with Levi is really wonderful. And it’s moments like this that inspire me to do everything else. 

I woke up today not ready for the week. I could of skipped this post and just picked up tomorrow. But instead I made time for Levi and then I made time for work.

Now I’m sitting in the car while he sleeps in the backseat, finally taking a nap, and I’m thinking about how great it is to have this. 

Life may not be perfect, but this is my life and it’s damn beautiful. 
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POTD: Perspective

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After all that I have shared this week, I was worried when I saw this was the photograph that I had chosen first and thus was the last one to be scheduled.

I had expected to post it last week but was hesitant because I wasn’t sure it was good enough. As I came across it again, I had the same hesitation. What makes this shot special?

And then it came to me. It is the story behind it, or rather the story I can pull from it. You see, I don’t know what kind of plant it is, it was growing every where and honestly, I am sure my plant propagation teacher is sad that I’ve forgotten how to identity any of it.

I remember walking along and noticed the patch growing along the side of the path and wanted to try and capture it all in one big group. I did and perhaps it’ll be posted later. I also wanted to try and single out a few of the plants though.

I was just experimenting really.

This shot made it through and as I edited and dug through the masses of shots I had, it kept making the cut. I just didn’t know why.

Tonight, I finally see it for what it can be.

Here was this plant, growing much the same as it’s peers, to everyone around, it wasn’t anything special. Alone though it can shine and it can be beautiful. It’s an individual made up of it’s own qualities. Blending in but capable of standing out. Normal but capable of being abnormal.

Like all of us, it can shine bright and beautiful if we give it the time to tell us it’s story.

I hope you have enjoyed in seeing the world though my eyes this week and I hope that it inspires you to look a little different at everything around you. You never know what or who you can find. Just remember everyone is beautiful, it is us who are viewing them who must allow that beauty into our lives.

Have a lovely weekend and see you on Monday!


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QOTD: Suffering

“The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”

– Bob Marley

I am attracted to things that many consider to be dark.

This quote for example, I am sure isn’t as popular with my more positive thinking friends, especially those who have a very different perception of the word suffering.

For me, in this context, suffering does not have as dark of a meaning because I don’t think of this quote as words on the surface, but rather and expression of emotion and feeling. And it has a lot to do with the fact that everyday for me is a battle.

That is my reality, and as messed up as that seems to people, the truth is I don’t usually wake up wanting to be in whatever situation I find myself in, regardless of how good it is.

It isn’t something I have much control over, no, the only thing I control with it is how I react to it. Which is why I write, engage in photography, and try to find the positive. Try being key.

A statement like this is beautiful because in my reality it makes sense. The things I love, the things that bring me happiness also bring about the most anxiety and fear. For whatever reason, being happy, is a struggle for me. Having lived through very hard times of crippling depression, I can tell you, it is very easy to sit around and be okay with being nothing.

The struggle comes when you want to be happy, feel normal, and enjoy the cascade of emotions you see others around you experiencing. You wish you could enjoy going out and seeing the world, but the amount of effort that takes, is damn near exhausting, and sometimes even thinking about it is enough to put you into a 14 hour nap.

So yes, for some of us, finding someone worth suffering for is beautiful. That person is someone who helps us feel happy and it worth the effort it takes to actually be happy. Sometimes its a thing a too. Like writing this post. I’ve spent the whole week thinking about it. Pondering every emotion I had when reading it, trying to find the sole idea that connected them all. It was the only quote that I couldn’t talk about on Sunday, because it was so important that I knew, I just didn’t have the time to work on it and also knew it was important enough to make the time for.

It was important for me to learn how to be okay with expressing more of myself and not hiding behind the idea that something is hard. I listened to a Youtuber this week talk about the idea of people who don’t release products until they are perfect. I used to think that you shouldn’t share things with the world, things you wanting to share with the world, until they are perfect. But the truth was, it was just an excuse to not do anything. Reality is, so much more comes from just doing it and learning from the failures and the mistakes.

Part of my recovery the last few months was realizing that I have failed so much in my life but that those failures don’t define who I am. I am not depression. I am Jorge. I am a dad, a photographer, a blogger, and a creator. I love making things, regardless of the reaction others give to it, because making things is how I express myself. Sometimes it is pretty and sometimes it isn’t. I have successes and I need to recognize them.

I have a dream of someday being able to support my family with the things I create. What has been holding me back this last month, is the very idea that I need to make the perfect thing, that being able to find that perfect equation will be my big break. But that isn’t true. I need to just create and create the crap out of whatever I think and feel. Along the way, perhaps I will make it as an artist, but in the end, what is most important is getting it out of my head, letting it live and letting myself live.

POTD: The Trail [Part 3]

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Omaha, Nebraska is not at all like anywhere I have lived before. You can be in the downtown area and then drive fifteen minutes east and be in farm country.

Much like Omaha, Ed Zorinsky Recreational Park, had it’s fair share of surprises for me.

What had been a fairly fun walk hidden among the trees on one of the unofficial paths, suddenly opens up into this clearing and from there the trees just slowly disappeared.

I still had them on my right and left but for a moment they stood only to frame the sky with was so lovely. A warm and bright day, I was gifted with this beautiful sea of white and blue.

Everything about this path was dreamy. It was just perfection after perfection. I worried so much that I wouldn’t be able to capture what I was seeing. Luckily, I was and this painted sky will hopefully find it’s way on my wall soon.

Moments like this, brought to you by curiosity.


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QOTD:Friends

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.”

Bernard M. Baruch

Starting to be honest with myself, made me feel like a jerk.

I mean, some people do consider me to be a jerk but those are the people that I realized I actually don’t like and they don’t like me so why do I care?

I guess, I share quotes like this over and over again, to remind myself that every step make in the direction that is closer to myself, the more people from my present will be pushed into my past.

My current present though is in need of improvement. Improvement in myself. It isn’t easy to let people go, but if someone really cares about you, and you them, you make changes like this work. They recognize when changes are good and they accept it and you should feel the same.

Life isn’t stagnant. Most the time you won’t even notice when your friends change because it’s natural, you recognize it’s still them and nothing happens because you are okay with it.

We only really notice the bad stuff. So I guess where are the changes needed?


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POTD: The Trail [Part 2]

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Ed Zorinsky Recreational Park in Omaha, Nebraska, was such a gold mine for inspiration.

When I stumbled upon this trail, I knew that I had been asked by the official park sign not to go on it. But clearly I wasn’t the first person to do so.

As I was looking over this spot, the idea came to mind, to get real low, as in crouch down because I wasn’t about to put my bare knee in the dirt. (I was itchy enough as it was.)

It changed my view enough to make this area seem larger and wild. It broke up the uniformity of the rest of the trail. Here is where it really felt like an adventure. I wanted to get lost and find something new. I wanted to spend hours here, much as I had done in the forests of northern California when I was in college.

For a moment I was far away from everyone and there was no going back.

I wanted to shrink down to have the grass tower over me, the trees standing as giants. Adventure truly is out there.


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QOTD:Flaws

“Our flaws are what make us human. If we can accept them as part of who we are, they really don’t even have to be an issue.”

– Ellen Degeneres

It’s Wednesday.

You’ve made it this far and guess what, you are gonna make it the rest of the way.

What ever mistakes you’ve made, or think you’ve made, it’s all good.

That is what this quote means to me. I mean, not a single one of us has any reason to think we are perfect. We just aren’t.

So take today and just celebrate. Smile and laugh about something, anything. You got this.

Really, I think Ellen’s words say enough and I just wanted to share it.


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