Update: Anger

It’s no secret that I feel angry.

I’d have to say anger is the emotion I am most comfortable with. My default. My go to. It’s become my defense.

Lately, my marriage has been in the forefront of my mind. I caught myself laughing as I thought about some memories, a genuine feeling of joy coming across my face. At the same time, I felt angry that those memories are so tainted.

So far, everyone seems to think forgiveness is my best option. I don’t disagree, but I am just not there yet. I’ve shared a lot about being honest with your emotions. Honestly, I don’t know if anything I say is helpful for anyone but ,for me, being honest with myself is huge.

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QOTD: Creating Yourself

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.”

– George Bernard Shaw

I love the control this statement gives the individual. “Finding yourself” implies you don’t have the ability to do so with out some sort of journey or search in which you have little to no control of the outcome, length, or course.

“Creating yourself” gives control to you as an individual to dictate who you are entirely. You make the choices, you carry the power, and you decide.

 


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QOTD: Live for the stars, they are more plentiful.

May 16, 2017

log in the grass b&w

“Shoot for the moon, even if you fail, you’ll land among the stars.”

– Cecelia Ahern

In five months I went from single to married and it was quite an adventure. It was fun, exciting, overwhelming, and terrifying. Committing to marry someone so quickly was insane but it felt right and it was something I wanted.

That marriage is effectively over.

It is the reason I started work on this blog and reading this quote this morning reminded me how interesting it has been to see how much better of a person I am now that I am out of that marriage and how much it changed my life and brought me to a place where I can feel confident in following my dreams and feel excited for the future.

Trust me, a lot people in my situation wouldn’t be as outwardly happy as I am. The difference between what I could be doing and what I am doing is how I choose to just not worry about what I can’t control anymore. At first, that was hard. When you separate from anyone whom you have a relationship with, you do get mad when they seem to just move on. I know I did.

It didn’t take long, though, to realize how much I still had. Yeah, many of the people I had gotten close to seemed to push me out, but in doing so I found better friends. The people who actually helped me and showed me what it was like to actually care about people. Which was surprising to me because I thought my “church family” would have played a large role in my recovery, but that did not happen at all.

New opportunities presented themselves at work and in my own pursuit of happiness. I realized more fully who I was as a person, recognizing not only my weaknesses, but for once really seeing where I was strong and capable.

Life is still hard. My finances are a cluster ___. I have no idea how to be single and not seeing my son every day can get really frustrating.

But I have a decent home, food in cupboard, the opportunity to see my son often, great friends, my own car, a successful (in my mind) business, opportunities to explore and grow in my hobbies, drive to live, time to appreciate life, a great job, and a hope for my future.

There are plenty of things in my life that are great still. I overcame this hurdle and I will survive and continue to survive anything that comes my way. As a Mormon, I believe in an after-life, so why am I going to waste my time worrying about things that really don’t matter?

I still have some things to work on but I control that now. I control my life and I accept that, that means I can’t control everything.

Surviving anything means happiness is a choice.


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Quiet Thoughts: Bitterness and Joy

Overheard a conversation today about someone finding out their spouse was expecting. Hearing about babies is so exciting. It’s also Spring and many of my friends are starting to share with everyone new relationships, or are getting engaged, or are getting married.

It’s really amazing to see so many of my friends happy and I feel so happy for them.

Unfortunately, that happiness can get a little jumbled up with bitterness.

I caught myself today, going from one to other and it made me think. Given the situation my life is in, it can be really easy to feel upset. And honestly it happens and sometimes I can’t stop it.

Like I’ve been sharing, hiding your emotions gets you no where.

Another example from today: I was at lunch and a coworker was talking about her pregnancy experience. A second coworker who hasn’t had children commented about how sometimes she feels unsure about having children after hearing those stories. I commented that as a man I really don’t experience pregnancy the way a woman would.

I started talking about how exciting it is and very quickly I found myself starting to cry. Good cry.  But I forced it back and it being work I don’t know if it was the time and place to really let my emotions out but it was nice to feel for a second. Especially that sort of joy with comes from memories of my son and family.

Bitterness is an emotion and like all emotions is only temporary. Life is a series of up and downs and it really isn’t worth the time to try and force yourself into a false emotion.

From my moment of bitterness, and examining what was behind it, I found different emotions. Yeah it still hurts to think about my family falling apart, but I do feel grateful that I get to see my son and that there is a hope for starting over. Was that the plan I had in mind? No, but my new plan isn’t all that bad.

I am still able to find things that bring me a lot of joy and make me feel successful. Negative emotions are natural to have and the less time I spend trying to suppress them, the more time I can spend doing literally anything else.

And there are plenty of things I’d rather be doing.


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QOTD: Positive Action

May 9, 2017

“When you change your mind, you change your potential. When you change your actions, you change your life.”

– Eric Sands

Everyday I try to accomplish two things: Do something positive and do something fun.

I have to say that is pretty easy to do when I am posting my photos and these quotes on my Instagram because it is fun seeing people react to my work and also it is motivating to read the quotes I share first thing each morning.

From there my day changes so much. I feel so motivated to take advantage of each day. Some days that means pulling off the road and going for a walk or going to the store and dreaming about buying furniture. Some days I just go home and play some air guitar and pretend to be a rock star (I am proud of my fake stardom).

When I have my son, I don’t fuss about too much. I try to find time to play and sing with him. I will read to him each night and we will get ready in the morning together. And when I don’t have him I shift focus to working on my business and planning for the future. All of this to just keep positive and keep forward pushing.

It has been the small, simple things that have made the biggest difference in my life. Each day gets easy and I look forward to getting up and starting a new day. The biggest change has been my attitude change about getting up early on the weekends. I finally understand why it is such a good idea.

Surviving anything is about changing your actions to create the life you want. Don’t ever give up.


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Surviving Anything: Dry Grass

The start of my journey to survive anything.

When it comes to finding happiness, photography brings me the greatest joy. Merging my photography into the products I can offer only brings it to a new level.

The “Dry Grass Square” design represents the beginning of this adventure. This image was taken when I first jumped back into photography in March. At the time, it was more important for me to break the barriers I had built up to keep from being happy and to just be comfortable with who I am.

I remember this day was the first time I had been in public in years and not felt completely uncomfortable and anxious. As my focus became capturing the story unfolding around me, I slowly dissolved into the background and the only things that mattered where contained to what was just in my view.

For a moment I was lost.

Then reality came flooding back in as I packed up and headed back to my car. However, I was different now because I had given in to my passion, and though my reality wasn’t any different, I felt better about my future and the hope I had been looking for was slowly being found.

This was the start of my journey to survive anything that life presented. I knew I was the only barrier to my happiness and changing my focus and my drive in life was the key to hope and joy.

Creating products with stories like this isn’t easy. Fear of rejection and misunderstanding has stopped me along the way, but only momentarily. It’s more important that these stories are shared, because I needed someone when my family broke apart but didn’t know where to turn. Now that I am starting to piece my life back together, I want to be there for someone else. I want to help people find hope and encourage them to survive.

I believe family is whom ever you choose to let into your life, and with a big family we can survive anything.


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Surviving Anything: Downtown Omaha

My choice to survive here and make this my home.

When I first moved to Omaha, Nebraska, I expected it to only be temporary. I was supposed to head back to Idaho to continue my education and then we thought maybe Missouri would be where we ended up. Two years later, I’ve come to except it at as home and am starting to look forward to growing here.

When my family life broke apart, I initially thought of taking my son to Los Angeles and starting fresh. I had a 24 hour window, where if I had acted, I probably wouldn’t be sitting here sharing any of this. But I felt keeping my son in Omaha would provide a better life for him and I accepted that this was going to be it for me.

Things started to change rather quickly once I agreed to stay. I was able to improve my work situation and found a decent apartment to move into. Now that I was no longer a “tourist” I started to explore more and really take a look at what I had.

Omaha has it’s charm. In the span of a half hour you can go from quiet country roads, through expanding cookie cutter neighborhoods, man-made lakes and into a downtown area rich with history. Being Mormon I also get to enjoy the close proximity of historical sites.

And so this is what the “Downtown Omaha” design represents. My choice to survive here and make this my home. I no longer worry about where I will move when my son moves out of my house. I dream of living in paradise but I know this can be paradise if given the chance.

We don’t always end up in the exact place we want to be. Adjusting to the flow of life and taking and giving chances to our circumstances is how we can learn to keep surviving anything.


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