POTD: Perspective

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After all that I have shared this week, I was worried when I saw this was the photograph that I had chosen first and thus was the last one to be scheduled.

I had expected to post it last week but was hesitant because I wasn’t sure it was good enough. As I came across it again, I had the same hesitation. What makes this shot special?

And then it came to me. It is the story behind it, or rather the story I can pull from it. You see, I don’t know what kind of plant it is, it was growing every where and honestly, I am sure my plant propagation teacher is sad that I’ve forgotten how to identity any of it.

I remember walking along and noticed the patch growing along the side of the path and wanted to try and capture it all in one big group. I did and perhaps it’ll be posted later. I also wanted to try and single out a few of the plants though.

I was just experimenting really.

This shot made it through and as I edited and dug through the masses of shots I had, it kept making the cut. I just didn’t know why.

Tonight, I finally see it for what it can be.

Here was this plant, growing much the same as it’s peers, to everyone around, it wasn’t anything special. Alone though it can shine and it can be beautiful. It’s an individual made up of it’s own qualities. Blending in but capable of standing out. Normal but capable of being abnormal.

Like all of us, it can shine bright and beautiful if we give it the time to tell us it’s story.

I hope you have enjoyed in seeing the world though my eyes this week and I hope that it inspires you to look a little different at everything around you. You never know what or who you can find. Just remember everyone is beautiful, it is us who are viewing them who must allow that beauty into our lives.

Have a lovely weekend and see you on Monday!


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QOTD: Suffering

“The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”

– Bob Marley

I am attracted to things that many consider to be dark.

This quote for example, I am sure isn’t as popular with my more positive thinking friends, especially those who have a very different perception of the word suffering.

For me, in this context, suffering does not have as dark of a meaning because I don’t think of this quote as words on the surface, but rather and expression of emotion and feeling. And it has a lot to do with the fact that everyday for me is a battle.

That is my reality, and as messed up as that seems to people, the truth is I don’t usually wake up wanting to be in whatever situation I find myself in, regardless of how good it is.

It isn’t something I have much control over, no, the only thing I control with it is how I react to it. Which is why I write, engage in photography, and try to find the positive. Try being key.

A statement like this is beautiful because in my reality it makes sense. The things I love, the things that bring me happiness also bring about the most anxiety and fear. For whatever reason, being happy, is a struggle for me. Having lived through very hard times of crippling depression, I can tell you, it is very easy to sit around and be okay with being nothing.

The struggle comes when you want to be happy, feel normal, and enjoy the cascade of emotions you see others around you experiencing. You wish you could enjoy going out and seeing the world, but the amount of effort that takes, is damn near exhausting, and sometimes even thinking about it is enough to put you into a 14 hour nap.

So yes, for some of us, finding someone worth suffering for is beautiful. That person is someone who helps us feel happy and it worth the effort it takes to actually be happy. Sometimes its a thing a too. Like writing this post. I’ve spent the whole week thinking about it. Pondering every emotion I had when reading it, trying to find the sole idea that connected them all. It was the only quote that I couldn’t talk about on Sunday, because it was so important that I knew, I just didn’t have the time to work on it and also knew it was important enough to make the time for.

It was important for me to learn how to be okay with expressing more of myself and not hiding behind the idea that something is hard. I listened to a Youtuber this week talk about the idea of people who don’t release products until they are perfect. I used to think that you shouldn’t share things with the world, things you wanting to share with the world, until they are perfect. But the truth was, it was just an excuse to not do anything. Reality is, so much more comes from just doing it and learning from the failures and the mistakes.

Part of my recovery the last few months was realizing that I have failed so much in my life but that those failures don’t define who I am. I am not depression. I am Jorge. I am a dad, a photographer, a blogger, and a creator. I love making things, regardless of the reaction others give to it, because making things is how I express myself. Sometimes it is pretty and sometimes it isn’t. I have successes and I need to recognize them.

I have a dream of someday being able to support my family with the things I create. What has been holding me back this last month, is the very idea that I need to make the perfect thing, that being able to find that perfect equation will be my big break. But that isn’t true. I need to just create and create the crap out of whatever I think and feel. Along the way, perhaps I will make it as an artist, but in the end, what is most important is getting it out of my head, letting it live and letting myself live.

POTD: The Naked Tree

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I should really take the time to study more about trees.

This was from my adventures in Ed Zorinsky Recreational Park in Omaha, Nebraska. I found this area of trees after I decided to ignore the one sign that said to stay on the path and follow along a dirt path that ran parallel to the normal path.

The reason I want to learn about tree’s has to do with what I am seeing here. Why are the branches on the lower end all broken and “dead?”

I guess, it could be because the canopy created by the tops would render them useless as not enough light gets through. I mean, that’s what I would say if I was pretending to know what I was talking about.

I definitely loved this spot though.

This is what I look for in nature. The not so pretty, pretty things. I pushed the lovely green, lively trees to the back and put in focus the branches and the trunks. The foundations for it all, the parts that keeping growing, providing the necessities for the rest. Year after year, they grow and strengthen. While most of us will love the tree for the few moments it looks “pretty,” I’ll love them for what they are, a whole lot of everything.


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QOTD: You

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Last week was filled with a multiple opportunities to be honest about who I am.

It was really inspiring but at the same time really exhausting. The more I felt inspired to continue down this path of blogging, photography, and creating, the more of a mental load I started to take on.

As is normal, part of that load is doubt and fear. It can be draining and last week ended up becoming a week of napping. I mean like deep napping, more like sleeping, sleeping for a long time. It was a moment to kind of stand back and remember that with progress comes a need to reevaluate my situation and make sure to take care of myself and be okay with whatever those needs are.

On what felt like such a high week, I was beyond tired.

And that is who I am. I am a person who gets mentally tired a lot because of how much I think and over think and blah…

Maybe to some that’s a bad thing but for me, right now, learning to be okay with it is so important and I am so glad that I didn’t get mad at myself for taking the time to sleep.

You know, in reality, my life is pretty boring, but I’ve made something of my life and it makes me happy. It makes me want to think about the future and it makes me hopeful.

If that’s wrong well then so be it, but I am going to nap as much as I please and as much as my body needs, then I am going to get back to work and keep surviving.


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POTD: The Lonely Tree

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When walking in parks, I wonder about how they are planned out. I literally have no idea how a park is created. How much of it is natural and how much was designed my man?

Take this tree for instance.

It was just growing by itself along the path. There wasn’t much around around it except the tall grass and then the forested area behind it. Was this planned? Did it just grow here after they were done or was it already here and they just went around it?

One thing I do know is most of these parks are around reservoirs that were created to help with water issues. At one point, one of them was just farm land. I don’t know the history of this park, Ed Zorinsky Park, and I should probably find out. The name alone is curious because the other parks I go to are named for the area they are in.

I also wonder if this tree is lonely. Can tree’s feel lonely? Would it matter? Either way I guess, it’s doing it’s thing and everyday it works on survival. It’ll grow and grow, watching people go by everyday, no one paying it much attention. It’ll provide shade and a home for wildlife. One day it may get to big and begin to tear up the sidewalk. Then what?

So, I was glad to take it’s picture, providing it a chance to live on in my memories and in the memories of all who see it, as the tree that did it’s thing and didn’t care, because that’s what trees do.


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QOTD: It Goes On

“In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.”

– Robert Frost

This is my mantra this week.

I can say life has been getting stressful. Things are starting to get a little real and I have plenty to worry about. But it will go on and things will change and I will survive.

Monday’s are considered by many to be the worst day of the week. (Or so society would have you believe.)

I had a friend though who said he thought Tuesday was the worst day of the week.

I’m not sure I agree with either one. I think most days can suck and most days can also not suck, it just depends on how you see it. The weeks that I am doing good, feeling successful and actually am successful, are the weeks where no matter what I let everyday be it’s best. Maybe that means Wednesday was good nap day or Thursday was rock the crap out of my to-do list day, either way each day is just that, another day and anther chance to be positive.

So today, Monday, lets try to be positive. It’s actually Sunday as I write this and I am already a half hour past my bedtime, but you know what Monday is gonna be bomb because I have my son and I have food in my fridge and I feel good about my future.

What positive thoughts do you have today? Please be sure to write them down and keep them in the front of your mind. Let’s make this week awesome.


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Father’s Day

IMG_4979.JPGTwo and half hours later, Levi is finally asleep.

What I though would be an easy night turned into a battle of the wills as I tried to get Levi to sleep. He was tired and had a complete meltdown at the park, several times. So we came home and got ready for bed a little earlier then normal.

We brushed teeth, put lotion on, changing into pajamas, read our scriptures, said our prayer, and drank a bottle.

Unfortunately, he seemed more awake then usual, but I still put him in his crib and crept out. I was planning on getting some work done to prepare for the week and just as I was about to, I heard him fussing.

I tried the usual to get him down. Nothing was working so I decided to just let him be and instead we had a couple of cookies and watched Youtube. Sure enough though he was still tired and just needed to lay down.

So off to bed again, this time we laid in my bed and he tossed and turned, flipped and flopped, kicked and groaned, until I finally told him to lay down or I would put him in the crib.

It worked.

I stayed and made sure he was good and asleep before sneaking away again.

I can’t say I don’t get frustrated when he won’t go down. The evenings are vital for all the many projects I am currently working on and Sunday’s are important planning nights. But only having him part time has helped me appreciate these moments for what they are.

Levi has been sleeping in my arms from day one. I remember holding him almost the whole night after he was born. His first big poop was in my arms!

I understood how precious my time was with him and even though I was tired, I enjoyed getting up and feeding him at night. We’d sit on the couch and usually sleep out there for a few hours before I’d realize it and sneak him back to his crib.

I love being a dad and it’s those moments when your child really shows his trust in you that make all the other stuff worth it. Levi knows he is safe with me and at night when he can’t sleep, he reaches out for me and it’s funny to see him try to cuddle up next to me but just can’t seem to get close enough.

So yeah, maybe tonight I spent most of my “work” time battling it out with a tired toddler, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything else. I am so grateful to be able to have that opportunity and to also to be able to recognize how special it is.

Fatherhood isn’t easy, but it is damn well worth it.