POTD: From Above

If there is one thing I have come to love about Omaha, Nebraska, it would have to be the amount of parks they have. Ed Zorinsky recreational park, was such a beautiful park to walk in and I only explored about a quarter or less of it. 

Along the way, there were a lot of little patches of flowers popping up here and there. Most were isolated in individual bunches, likes this one, spaced a few feet apart. 

Originally I had shot this bunch of flowers with my macro lens on and I’ll be sharing those images later this week. 

But as I was looking around, I really wanted to capture the intense contrast these little ones had with their surroundings. If I was a painter I would of spent most of my time painting what would be a massive green background with specks of color here and there. It was really beautiful to scan around and find just there bursts of color. 

With a few of the flowers I found, I took some lovely landscape type photographs but wasn’t really satisfied with the contrast. So as I was thinking about this photo, I slowly started to stand up and realized that looking down into the grass created the image I was looking for. 

It was just one of those happy moments of realization when you find the answer or solution to your problem right in front of your face. And so that is how this little gem was created. 

I discussed perspectives last week and this fits in with that. Sometimes we make more of mess and more trouble for ourselves by complicating the answers we are looking for, instead of letting the simplicity of life have free reign. 

I hope everyone has a great Monday night and we will see ya tomorrow. 

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QOTD: Small Joys

“Many people lose the small joys in the hope for the big happiness.”

– Pearl S Buck

I had to stay home with the kid today. He picked up a little cold last week and he needed another day before heading back to the babysitter. 

As much as it is worrisome to lose a days worth of pay and at the same time not get much done around the house because he needs extra attention, days like today are my favorite. I would love to be able to stay home and work. As hard as it would be to try and run a business and balance parental duties as a single parent, it would be completely worth it. 

Today, I caught myself getting a bit down on myself because it seems almost impossible to do. That future isn’t close and I realize the amount of work needed to get there. But then I remembered to enjoy this moment while I could. Getting to spend an extra full day with Levi is really wonderful. And it’s moments like this that inspire me to do everything else. 

I woke up today not ready for the week. I could of skipped this post and just picked up tomorrow. But instead I made time for Levi and then I made time for work.

Now I’m sitting in the car while he sleeps in the backseat, finally taking a nap, and I’m thinking about how great it is to have this. 

Life may not be perfect, but this is my life and it’s damn beautiful. 
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QOTD: Suffering

“The truth is everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”

– Bob Marley

I am attracted to things that many consider to be dark.

This quote for example, I am sure isn’t as popular with my more positive thinking friends, especially those who have a very different perception of the word suffering.

For me, in this context, suffering does not have as dark of a meaning because I don’t think of this quote as words on the surface, but rather and expression of emotion and feeling. And it has a lot to do with the fact that everyday for me is a battle.

That is my reality, and as messed up as that seems to people, the truth is I don’t usually wake up wanting to be in whatever situation I find myself in, regardless of how good it is.

It isn’t something I have much control over, no, the only thing I control with it is how I react to it. Which is why I write, engage in photography, and try to find the positive. Try being key.

A statement like this is beautiful because in my reality it makes sense. The things I love, the things that bring me happiness also bring about the most anxiety and fear. For whatever reason, being happy, is a struggle for me. Having lived through very hard times of crippling depression, I can tell you, it is very easy to sit around and be okay with being nothing.

The struggle comes when you want to be happy, feel normal, and enjoy the cascade of emotions you see others around you experiencing. You wish you could enjoy going out and seeing the world, but the amount of effort that takes, is damn near exhausting, and sometimes even thinking about it is enough to put you into a 14 hour nap.

So yes, for some of us, finding someone worth suffering for is beautiful. That person is someone who helps us feel happy and it worth the effort it takes to actually be happy. Sometimes its a thing a too. Like writing this post. I’ve spent the whole week thinking about it. Pondering every emotion I had when reading it, trying to find the sole idea that connected them all. It was the only quote that I couldn’t talk about on Sunday, because it was so important that I knew, I just didn’t have the time to work on it and also knew it was important enough to make the time for.

It was important for me to learn how to be okay with expressing more of myself and not hiding behind the idea that something is hard. I listened to a Youtuber this week talk about the idea of people who don’t release products until they are perfect. I used to think that you shouldn’t share things with the world, things you wanting to share with the world, until they are perfect. But the truth was, it was just an excuse to not do anything. Reality is, so much more comes from just doing it and learning from the failures and the mistakes.

Part of my recovery the last few months was realizing that I have failed so much in my life but that those failures don’t define who I am. I am not depression. I am Jorge. I am a dad, a photographer, a blogger, and a creator. I love making things, regardless of the reaction others give to it, because making things is how I express myself. Sometimes it is pretty and sometimes it isn’t. I have successes and I need to recognize them.

I have a dream of someday being able to support my family with the things I create. What has been holding me back this last month, is the very idea that I need to make the perfect thing, that being able to find that perfect equation will be my big break. But that isn’t true. I need to just create and create the crap out of whatever I think and feel. Along the way, perhaps I will make it as an artist, but in the end, what is most important is getting it out of my head, letting it live and letting myself live.

POTD: The Trail [Part 3]

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Omaha, Nebraska is not at all like anywhere I have lived before. You can be in the downtown area and then drive fifteen minutes east and be in farm country.

Much like Omaha, Ed Zorinsky Recreational Park, had it’s fair share of surprises for me.

What had been a fairly fun walk hidden among the trees on one of the unofficial paths, suddenly opens up into this clearing and from there the trees just slowly disappeared.

I still had them on my right and left but for a moment they stood only to frame the sky with was so lovely. A warm and bright day, I was gifted with this beautiful sea of white and blue.

Everything about this path was dreamy. It was just perfection after perfection. I worried so much that I wouldn’t be able to capture what I was seeing. Luckily, I was and this painted sky will hopefully find it’s way on my wall soon.

Moments like this, brought to you by curiosity.


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POTD: The Trail [Part 2]

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Ed Zorinsky Recreational Park in Omaha, Nebraska, was such a gold mine for inspiration.

When I stumbled upon this trail, I knew that I had been asked by the official park sign not to go on it. But clearly I wasn’t the first person to do so.

As I was looking over this spot, the idea came to mind, to get real low, as in crouch down because I wasn’t about to put my bare knee in the dirt. (I was itchy enough as it was.)

It changed my view enough to make this area seem larger and wild. It broke up the uniformity of the rest of the trail. Here is where it really felt like an adventure. I wanted to get lost and find something new. I wanted to spend hours here, much as I had done in the forests of northern California when I was in college.

For a moment I was far away from everyone and there was no going back.

I wanted to shrink down to have the grass tower over me, the trees standing as giants. Adventure truly is out there.


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QOTD:Flaws

“Our flaws are what make us human. If we can accept them as part of who we are, they really don’t even have to be an issue.”

– Ellen Degeneres

It’s Wednesday.

You’ve made it this far and guess what, you are gonna make it the rest of the way.

What ever mistakes you’ve made, or think you’ve made, it’s all good.

That is what this quote means to me. I mean, not a single one of us has any reason to think we are perfect. We just aren’t.

So take today and just celebrate. Smile and laugh about something, anything. You got this.

Really, I think Ellen’s words say enough and I just wanted to share it.


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QOTD: You

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Last week was filled with a multiple opportunities to be honest about who I am.

It was really inspiring but at the same time really exhausting. The more I felt inspired to continue down this path of blogging, photography, and creating, the more of a mental load I started to take on.

As is normal, part of that load is doubt and fear. It can be draining and last week ended up becoming a week of napping. I mean like deep napping, more like sleeping, sleeping for a long time. It was a moment to kind of stand back and remember that with progress comes a need to reevaluate my situation and make sure to take care of myself and be okay with whatever those needs are.

On what felt like such a high week, I was beyond tired.

And that is who I am. I am a person who gets mentally tired a lot because of how much I think and over think and blah…

Maybe to some that’s a bad thing but for me, right now, learning to be okay with it is so important and I am so glad that I didn’t get mad at myself for taking the time to sleep.

You know, in reality, my life is pretty boring, but I’ve made something of my life and it makes me happy. It makes me want to think about the future and it makes me hopeful.

If that’s wrong well then so be it, but I am going to nap as much as I please and as much as my body needs, then I am going to get back to work and keep surviving.


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